Feels like I never left

First proper dancing lesson tonight - ahhh it felt so good to be back. It felt like I'd never been away, it was just so easy to slip back into doing our warm up and stretching and all. Thank goodness I don't think I've lost as much of my flexibility that I feared I might've. Only tough one was rolling through middle splits. That killed me, I think I came as close to dammit to pulling something in there.
Was just so great to be back in the studio just us seniors (plus one or two newbies), late at night, being the last to leave, as we have always been. It was just so nice to be back. And of course it means I'm back to having dinner at like 9 o'clock at night. But I don't care - I'M BACK BABY!

Today was just nice - relaxing, nothing too strenuous. It was a bit of a Blue Heelers day actually. All my BH buddies were on msn and I stayed in my pyjamas til 3pm chatting to them all. I wa son there instantly anyways as soon as I got my mail for today - the Blue Heelers Bible arrived today! Thankyou Rosy! I love you! OMG it was so great reading through it! I felt pretty privilileged reading something that usually stays on set at Seven Melbourne and says private and confidential on the front. Thanks a million Rosy! You're the best!

And then I got online and Rosy showed me the pic of Lisa and Archer and Oliver that she found and I was all :o) !!!!!!!!!!!! God they're gorgoeus kids, and what a rare photograph, I'm so glad I got to see it. And I was thinking when Rosy showed me that Jackie would just die when she saw it, and I was right - she did! We had a very hyper convo about it just a while ago. Haha there's your birthday present from Rosy Jacks!

Speaking of mail I don't know what's happened to Elise's dvd - I'm still patiently waiting. I hope it comes soon. I am so eager to see it!

Blue Heelers classics are back on tomorrow, I have another senior jazz class tomorow night where we might be discussing troupe possibilities (!!!), me and Ash are meeting up on Thursday to get HD's b'day pressie and then on Friday I'm teaching for TO and then me, Ash and Na are taking HD out for lunch to the Secret Garden for her birthday. I hope all the girls like it as much as I did. Anyways I can't wait - it's going to be a great week!

To leave you now I'll share with you a link to a very funny Ebay auction
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Listening to: Have a Little Faith - John Farnham
Loved: Rosy www.practically-perfect.blogspot.com thanks so much again!
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Come on Shorty, it's your birthday

That's the song we danced to tonight in our first hip hop class with Lisa. I actually really enjoyed it. I was so unsure about doing this class, cos I still don't know if I love hip hop yet the way I love classical and broadway jazz, so I was just going to go and see how I felt and if i didn't love it by the end of term I wouldn't keep going. But today was our first lesson and it was fun. Lisa's choreography isn't as difficult or complex as Janelle's which was probably a good thing for us. Lisa kept saying all night how piss easy the steps were for us and how well we were getting them, but now we just have to work on getting the attitude and groove of it all cos we're all too trained into cabaret jazz and poitn our toes too much and keep nice posture and do everything nice and aesthetically correct, lol. Can't do that in hip hop though.
Anyways, at the end we had to split into a couple of groups of 5 or 6 and do the dance in just those small groups whilst everyone else watched. After that she went along the mirrors where we were all sitting and pointed at people going 'You...you..you...you...and you' to get up and do the dance again because we had 'caught her eye'. and she picked me! :oO WTF!? That never happens to me. I usually hate teachers that single out people like that, you know, getting the best dancers up to show off and perform again whilse the rest of us feel really poor because I never ever get picked. Janelle did that, and of course it was all the KF's and LT's and CM's of the group you know, nobody like me. But tonight Lisa picked me cos I had caught her eye. I couldn't get over it! So that's probably what made me love the class so much. Oh and it was also excellent cos Lara's back! :o) I didn't even know she was coming back...I thought, you know, when someone gets a taste of another state they never move back to perth, but she said Sydney was good for a year but she wanted to come baack home. It's great to have her back..one of us oldies.
Other than that I don't think I have any news to share with the group, lol. Dad and I went all the way to Willeton to look at a car before dancing but it was one of those ones that looks great on the outside but under the hood is a shocker. It rattled like buggery and totally chugged along and Dad thought it would need a wheel alignment, at least 2 new tyres and plus heaps more. He ever thinks it was missing a cylinder! Needless to say, we didn't buy it. It was pretty old, an '88 Nissan Pulsar and he was asking for $2200. the only thing that was good about it was the cd player and the fact it was just my size - nice and small. Oh well, gotta keep looking. I don't even have enough money saved yet anyways, I can tell this whole buying a car thing is going to clean me out big time and I'm going to not even have three figures left in the bank afterwards :o(
Australia Day was super, even though Ash and I didn't end up doing all what we had planned to. Didn't get to the foreshore till like 5pm and then it was all just over way too soon :o( Next year we're soooo going earlier. Then this weekend just gone we went to Hillary's on Sunday, just for a bit of relaxing and met up with one of her work friends. Damn the stupid sun though, I still didn't get any colour on me, even though I laid in the sun for like probably an hour (and the sun was blazing believe me) and I didn't have any sunscreen on! Where is the justice? lol!
I went to see Munich on Saturday night with VG and can I just say...WOAH. Top movie, I just loved it! I knew I would, but wow it was just so amazing! I reccommend everyone see it :o)
Anyways, I'm totally not in the mood to even write in my blog tonight so this will be one of my shortest entries ever! Can't wait for tomorrow...should be getting both Elise's and Rosy's packages in the mail! YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Listening to: Copperhead Road - Lee Kernaghan - Blue Heelers soundtrack
Loved: Ellie www.paintyourtarget.net
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Who would've thought?

Who would've thought people you chat to online or in forums could be so great? You hear horror stories about creepy people on the net, but the ones I have become friends with are all such great people. They do me favours, I do them favours, we read each others blogs, we have late night chats on msn, we write mammoth emails, we support each other, it's great. They've all been so good to me.
Like I met TO online, which if I ever tell anyone they think I'm super weird, which is why I lied to Mrs S about it and said we just randomly sat next to each other at comps one day and struck up a conversation and built up a friendship from there. And now look at us, we dance together, I am about to start teaching for her, I helped her in the early stages of her studio etc etc.
And Jackie, what can I say about Jackie? :) You're such a great friend! And we can discuss so much and know exactly what each other means, even at 4am. Our common bond of loving the golden couple started it all, and since then we have had some great chats and supported each other and been happy for each other (like her growing bambino! Which will be a boy! Yay!). I was so ecstatic the day Jackie told me she was having a baby, seriously, it was such great news, and I knew how great it was because we're good mates. And how can I forget how she made me a tape of the all time best Blue Heelers episodes that I missed! You should've seen me on the day that arrived on my doorstep Jackie! If only you could've seen!

And then tonight when I was on Blochworld dq wrote in the Blue Heelers thread 'I read about the axing when I was on holidays and I immediately thought of you!' and I was touched. People can be so nice.

And all the people on the bh.org forums that say so many great things about my writing and my fics, that is so nice. They really shower me with compliments and it's so kind. And like look at these reviews I've got from fanfiction.net...

"Wow you wouldn't know how long I've spent trying to find out who wrote this fic, I came across it somewhere else and I had to find out who wrote it so I could compliment them and it's really funny because I had that nagging feeling it was you because it had that same great style. But as it happens I was cleaning out my drawers (as I do when I'm extremely bored) and I came across this fic (that I printed out and kept in my drawer for rainy days) and I HAD to read it again, you'd think that I'd get bored reading the same thing over and over and over and over again but as you know when you make images in your head (even if their the same) you get gravely addicted! And I think I've said it somewhere before I love the way you write because of the really vivid pictures I see when I read your writing, it's really strange, they're so clear...yeah, oh now I've made a dill of myself! *blushes*
Aww and the last paragraph had me in tears (and I never cry!) so truly brilliant!Yep so this story has had a massive impact on me and yup I love it to bits! Still can't believe you wrote it though... but then again you are a fabulous writer. Ahh I'm so happy I could do a review on this fic...finally! And compliment you on your tremendous work...yep, think I might go and muse over it now!"

":) *cheers* YAY! Finally got to see your name on the top of the page again! I was terribly excitied!!Oh Brindy what can I say? It's marvellous! This mightn't mean anything much but I love the way you write, it's incredible. I don't usually mention it because people give me weird looks but I make pictures in my head when I read (I suppose everyone else does too), the more descriptive the piece the more I lose myself in the images and Brindy you really put me there, in the middle of it all and the pictures that I get when I'm reading are so vivid it's like watching a high definition movie! Everything's so real, that stark darkness when Alex got shot, the pain running through him (that actually made me feel a bit sick- usual reaction I get to pain!), the smell of the thai food and it's exotic taste, the vague glitter of light through Amy's hair. I just love everything about this fic...then again I love all your fics, it's that weird way they make me see things. Amazing portrayal of Amy, it's so fantastically 'real', I could just put myself into her shoes, which is something I can't usually do!Top stuff! It's was absolutely awesome! *sighs* :) I read your Christmas TJ fic the other day (for the fifth time! hehe I must admit, it the Christmas tree that gets me, amazingly good Xmas tree! I just read that bit over and over to see the Xmas tree- I've a bit of a sucker for bright lights and baubles!) and it wouldn't let me post another review *sighs* so just wanted to tell you it got me in the Xmas mood and that I loved it (again really, loved it all the times I read it to be honest!)Oh you gotta write some more! I'm in dire need of good reading material!"



Those are two of the nicest reviews I have ever got, and it makes me want to write for ever! It totally inspires me, so of course I am still writing. It's a bit embarrassing to be writing fics, but hey, my loyal fans love them!

So, just a big thankyou to all the great people I have talked to over the last 12 months, you're all legends - TO, PM, Jackie (thanks for the tape), Rosanna (thanks for the bag and BH bible you ARE going to send right? right? ;)) Elle, Steffles, Cat (thanks for the cd - you're my god! I haven't stopped listening to it!), Soph, Mads, all the people on TVAus and the bh.org forum. Hugs to you all!

Listening to: In the Air Tonight - Phil Collins (this song totally makes me think of super sexy ballroom/latin! hehe)
Loved: Rosanna www.practically-perfect.blogspot.com
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Down on my luck

Today has just been shit, honestly, it's been really shitty. I apologise in advance to anyone reading this if this entry turns out to be a really depressing, ranting, venting entry. It probably will be.
I think it's all just got on top of me how much I so badly want to do so much and I don't know how to do it. I've said it before - I want to lead an extraordinary life, not just an ordinary one. I want to be a success, I want people to know my name, I want them to write about me in The Bulletin and The Australian...I want it all. Well, maybe not it all, as that could be a little selfish to ask for, but I just want to be a success. But I don't know how to get there. I don't even know where to start and I think that is what's getting me down, especially tonight.
Mum and Dad announced tonight that they're definitely going on that cruise. Probably in August. And Kyle is still definitely going to Europe, probably won't be home for Christmas next year. And I was listening to all this at the dinner table and Mum was like 'What's wrong? You want to go on a holiday too?' and I nearly exploded. Like isn't it obvious? Everyone wants to go on a holiday. If you don't, you're not human.
So I am pretty down about just never getting opportunities. It feels like everybody else around me gets heaps of opportunities and is so lucky, and I never do. Maybe it's just that you need to go looking for them and maybe I don't do that (certainly not because I'm lazy or anything though, just because I don't know how).
No offence to everyone I know, but I just don't understand how everyone one else has the money to do so much and go to so many places and I don't. It just seems like everyone I know is going on holidays! Actually, it doesn't just seem like it, it IS happening! One friend is currently on the Gold Coast, one is going to Melbourne and Sydney, one is currently travelling the UK and Europe, my brother is going to Europe, my parents are going on a cruise to Sigapore and KL and places like that, another is going to Europe in October (Europe seems to be the flavour of the month), another has just come back from a trip away in South Australia and these are just the ones I can think of right now in the heat of the moment!
Like where the fuck do you get the money? (don't answer that by the way...this is just me venting). Like I think of my friends and they have jobs, but then some of them only have really casual jobs or seasonal jobs or some are even bloody unemployed (!) and they all wear great clothes and have plenty of them, great shoes, have a great haircut, own a car and go out all the time. I have only a few things that are really nice, same with shoes, you'll be lucky if I can afford to go to the hairdressers a couple of times a year, I don't own a car (still trying to save for that one) and I go out about 1/10th of the amount that my friends do. Where is the logic? I still have zero money and can't afford anything. I'm never going to get a car...M+D said tonight that I will have to pay for it all myself, and if they help out it will only be a little bit, and of course I'd have to pay it back. They said the paying back part as though that was the clincher in the deal. Like it was just too bad if I was struggling to save enough for a set of wheels. They had originially said they would pay half and I would pay half.
So, even though I wanted to have a car by the time uni goes back, I probably won't. I still need to save so much more and it's just not happening, honestly.
And now I so badly want to go on a holiday...seems like when holidays are discussed in this house they no longer include me. A family holiday includes Mum and Dad only. Although I will enjoy the solitude of having no one around when they do go. Peace and quiet....ahh :)
I just want to explore so bad you know? There are so many places I want to visit, but right now I'd settle for just one. JUST ONE. I actually wanted to go and have a bit of a cry when I left the dinner table, but I held back and refused to let myself get that upset about it all. So I haven't.
I'm thinking though that since I will never have enough money in any near future for a holiday, I'm going to set my sights on when I finish uni. It seems like such a long time away, and fuck me, it IS, but it's still a goal to have for myself. So I am thinking of setting up a bank account for 'after uni holiday' money. Maybe a dreamsaver one or something - one that I can't hack into. One where I just put money in and I can never get it out unless I front up in person saying 'I've booked a holiday, give me my money'. Then at the end of 2007 I can look into holidays (knowing me I probably already would've planned every minute of it already) and make my move. Finally. And I think with two years of saving I should aim for somewhere big. Europe doesn't interest me as much as NYC does, and that's where I wanna go. Manhattan is the place I have wanted to go to....forever. Since I read about it in Babysitters Club books for goodness sake! I've read heaps about it, I even have a map of it up on my wall - I want to go there.
I don't want to keep going on like a depressed person living in an asylum, but I need to get so many things off my chest. Yesterday I was trying to organise Australia Day and sms'd VG reminding her of our promise we made last Australia Day to go to the fore shore with lots of food and drink, our bathers and lots of board games and just sit there all day. She messaged back saying 'I've checked with Les and he's going to the fore shore so let's meet down there. Get HD and everyone too.' It took me til today to reply, cos I was so pissed off. In my message I hadn't actually said 'just you and me' cos I had thought that would be too obvious, and I thought my message was obvious enough already, but I guess I should've. So I messaged back with 'Oh nah don't worry then.' And you'd think that a message like that would be blazingly obvious that I didn't want to spend Australia Day as a third wheel with Les and all his loser friends. Especially when VG and I had said last year we would do the whole all day thing together, just us. But obviously VG is thicker than I already thought she was. She just didn't even get it! I got a message back saying 'OK then, but we'll definitely go and see Munich when it comes out ok?' and that was it. And HD is going to Dion's again this year which VG and I did that last year also, and it was good, but I don't really want to do it again this year. But I am pretty sure HD does, so...yeah. I think I might ask Ash what she's doing.
I know with this whole VG and Les thing I would probbably not be making such a big deal out of it if I actually had a boyfriend of my own, but the fact is I don't and I'm so desperately lonely which probably makes me even more ratty and prone to depressing posts on my blog. It just shitted me off that like she consults Les on what she will do for Australia Day. Like it's his decision. She's terrible for that though....she has always done it, as long as I've known her. It's like hello boyfriend, goodbye friend.
Sam is leaving next Saturday too :( I am so sad. Last Thursday was our last late night working together cos he hasn't worked this week on either Thursday or Saturday and won't work next Thursday either cos he's broken a bone in his foot and might not even be able to come in on the 28th! It sucks, I don't want him to leave - he's such a gem and I'll miss him. Thursday nights were always so fun cos I got to work with Sam. Now it won't be as much of a thing to look forward to...I'll only have my whinging partner Sarah to joke with, not the master of jokes - Sam. Sadness. The cafe won't be the same without him.
Oh! I had the most horrific dream the other night :( I was speaking to Nanna on the phone and she was in such a state, I think she was hallucinating or something and she was telling me such creepy stuff. She kept saying death was coming for her, and that she was staring death in the face as she sat in her bed and spoke on the phone to me. I was getting so stressed out and nobody would help me. They weren't even noticing how scared I was, and I was like yelling down the phone for her not to look and to shut her eyes and think positive thoughts. It was awful, and I hate having dreams like that cos I am always afraid they'll come true.

Oh well, after all this I think I'm going to go. No one is on msn darn it, and TVAus is down right now, so I think I might go back to watching the Daniela Hantuchova v Serena Williams match on tv. Go Daniela!

Listening to: (I've Had) The Time of My Life - Dirty Dancing Sydney Cast Recording
Loved: Jackie www.fuzzy-monkey.com
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Late nights and rain

That's what it's like outside tonight. Been a true shit of a day, not like summer at all! I woke up at 11am when my alarm went off (no one was home to bug me to get up...ahhh I love it when that happens) and I scooted out of bed half asleep knowing I really should check if my work clothes were out on the line in the rain. Thankfully they weren't so I scrambled back to my little cave of blankets :o) Got up at about 1:45pm (I know, I'm a slob, but hey I like sleeping ok!) and Mum rang up like 3 seconds after I'd staggered into the kitchen asking if I'd had lunch yet and should we go out to lunch and I was like 'Dude, I haven't even had breakfast yet!' so I just skipped it and went out and had lunch at Miss Maud's with her.
Last night me and Sam went to the Leedy to meet Win and Heidi and some of the others. Was sort of a non event, cos me and Sam were going to go together and she had a dinner to go to first and said she'd be done before 9pm cos she said she wanted to go then so we could avoid the line, and so anyways, she said she'd text me when she was leaving home for the traino and she didn't message me til like 10 o'clock! I was like 'OK it shuts at 12, we are going to have zero time there' but I got dad to drop me at the traino anyways, and I had to sit there for like 15 minutes before Sam even showed. And Shannon was with her :o We ended up having to take a taxi anyways cos the trains aren't running after 8:30pm this week cos of all that work they're doing in Perth on the new station. What a piss off as PM would say.
Anyways, so I had never been to the Leedy before, but I'll tell you, it was a bit of a let down. And omg I've never been in a hotter club before in my life. We went up stairs to the r'n'b room which was apparently better than downstairs which is apparently the techno part. But mother of god, it was boiling in there! OMFG I just couldn't believe it! Sweat was pouring off everyone!
So yeah, probably the only exciting part of the night was that I saw Basil Zempalis there (he's the weekday sports presenter on Channel 7 Perth's 6pm news in case anyone didn't know) and that I didn't spend all my money on drinks like I always seem to (like NYE!) cos we weren't there long enough!
I don't really know why I'm creating a blog entry tonight. As you can see, I don't have much to write about. I'm a bit nervous cos Friday is d day for Blue Heelers and I am so afraid it will get axed! *sniff!* I so don't want it to, I will be so crushed if it does! Oh pleeeaaassseee channel 7 - just don't be bastards for one day and keep BH on all this year!
I am a bit down right now I have just realised actually. I guess I am worried about Nanna - that's funny, me actually admitting to being worried about her. But I am. Her surgery was successful today, the surgeon rang Mum to let her know. But then at about 8:30pm she had to go back into surgery because they couldn't stop some bleeding or something. I don't really know, no one ever gives me the full story around here. But then they rang again at about 10:30pm and she's ok and out of surgery again. What a relief.
Also this 'new me' thing is great and all but fuck it's boring being fit and healthy! Right now I still know I have to do 20 lunges on each leg before I go to bed, and also my sit ups and I should do some yoga too, to at least get some exercise today. Cos I was going to go on a mammoth bike ride today but then when I woke up at 11am I saw what it was like outside and said 'screw that' haha and went back to sleep. I did this about 5 times on and off before I got up at 1:45pm like I said. I will have to go on that bike ride tomorrow. It's supposed to be finer tomorrow. I'm thinking of riding to the beach - that'll be a bitch of a ride but oh so good for my thighs! lol! I have no clue how long it'll take me - probably too long, so I will probably get half way and then turn back and it'll still be hours of riding!
Other than that I have nothing planned for tomorrow. I was thinking earlier this week that I would text VG and ask to meet her at her work for lunch or something, but I have gone off that idea as the week's gone on. Her text's to me have been so short lately. Like I invited her out last night and she replied: "I already have plans for Wednesday night" and I was like "okkk". But that is just her, I know. She doesn't mean it the way it sounds, but still, she should think about putting some character and feeling into her texts cos otherwise they turn out to be bitchy sounding.
I am listening to a version of Eminem's 'Stan' and it has Elton John singing in it too. What the..! It sounds quite strange...ok switching songs now. I am now listening to 'Like Toy Soldiers' Ahhh much better!
I suppose I should go. Oh wait! But not before I mention that Cherie is having a boy! WOW! She went for her ultrasound yesterday and finally got to find out the sex of her little bambino and it's a boy! She said she wasn't going to tell anyone, but I think she couldn't resist. She showed me about 16 pictures of the ultrasound and was like 'See that little something between the legs?' and I was scrunching my eyes at it, trying to make out this little grey animal looking figure (that's what 3D ultrasounds have done to ultrasound photos these days!) and I was like 'Ahhh should I be able to? I can't even see the legs!' but she pointed out for us all that what was in between the legs was exactly what made it a boy, hehe! Shame, cos I was hoping for a girl, but I always had the feeling it would be a boy.

Keep your fingers crossed for Blue Heelers!

Listening to: Like Toy Soldiers - Eminem
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Can I have that scent bottled please?

I had to take down the Christmas tree last night :( Sadness. I hate taking it down and all our decorations around the house. It's like, such a let down. Christmas is definitely over then :( It's so exciting putting it up and preparing for Christmas, but then I never want to take it down, cos then the spirit of the season is dead. And what I miss most is the scent of our tree. I live for that scent man :( That's why I want to bottle it. You haven't smelt the most delicious, totally Christmas scent until you've smelt the scent of a real Christmas tree. I said this to Mum and she was all "Well, they make bathroom cleaners and stuff in 'pine scent'" and I'm like "Oh come on, it's so not the same" and she nodded, agreeing with me. "No, you're right, it's not the same."

More news on the me front, haha. Kyle is finishing at the silos soon! Hurray! Although I would never say it out loud, I am pleased he will finally be coming home. I miss him. He will be looking for a job when he come sback, pretty much anything he can get I think cos he just wants to be employed again. Especially since he's supposed to be going to Europe mid year. Somehow I cannot see that happening, but then people always surprise me, and everyone is going on trips right now, except for me, so I shouldn't be saying he won't go. It's just that he has not made any plans yet, and I don't think he's saved enough money to quite make it to another continent - so many expenses, like his car getting broken into, and things like that. And he hasn't booked any flights or anything!

Me and TO have been talking and I'm all set to teach her tinies for the first few weeks of February - or until I go back to uni. Happiness! I can't wait - TO is all praising already telling me that they'll love me and even though I'm shit at tap and never done acro, I will be totally fine teaching them that. I suppose she is right - I mean they're only 2 and 3 years old, headstands are easy enough for even me to grip lol! It'll be so good anyways - I just adore teaching, I wish I could do it all year. And little kidlets are so gorgeous! TO was all like 'Well we just do slap ball changes across the room and you and I will be on either side of them holding their hands as they go across' and I was all 'Awwwww'

PM and I are talking right now on MSN and she has mentioned a place in Karrinyup that she used to teach briefly for and it sounds like it's exactly what I would like. I so want something really easy and casual like that - just one day a week, maybe two, teaching little kids dancing. That would be so good! But I should wait til I have my own car and can transport myself around. it makes everything ten times harder when you have to rely on your Mum to pick you up!

Ohhhh another super bit of news I found out tonight! jane Allsop is also having a bambino! How gorgeous! Elle will be so stoked, I just know it! I messaged her, but she has not replied...must be asleep. Oh but I can just imagine your reaction when you read it Elly! hehe It's so sad she has had so many miscarriages - I had no idea. Like Bec said, she has never really seemed to be in the family way and wanting kids, but it's great that she is well on the way. She will probably have it arund about the time Cherie has her bub! And Jackie! Wowsers, everybody's having babies! If they're not going to Europe they're having babies, lol!

Anyways, a relatively short post for once. Goodnight!

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Listening to: Innocent Child - Lisa McCune - Blue Heelers soundtrack

Get me one of those...

...diamond encrusted tennis balls thanks! Wowsers, they are just gorgeous! I swear they look better every year. No wonder the players are attracted to this tournament. I read that the players on the tour are forever talking about these tennis balls, and half the reason they come to play at the Hopman Cup is because they want one for themselves as they are hard to win, very rare and worth $50,000. I had a squiz at the display during the week and I think they have added more diamonds! Last night they said there were 174 white, pink and champagne diamonds in the stirling silver setting. Here is a pic, but it does not even come close to showing the true beauty of them. You have to see them up close with your own eyes. See Daniela Hantuchova on the right of the pic? She is holding one of the precious things. They were last years HC winners.

Anyways, in other news, my new years resolution is going fantastically. I am so stoked, you would not believe it. My new years resolution by the way was to lose weight and get fit and for once in my life I am actually following through with it. Usually I last a day or two and then slip back into old habits. But not this time. It is 7 days into 2006 and I'm still keeping a grip on my resolution. I have totally ditched the junk food (although I'm not being stupid and not allowing myself ANY junkfood. I have had a bit here and there, but nothing like what I used to) and eaten healthy and exercised every day. And bugger me it's working! I nearly jumped through the ceiling when I stepped onto the scales and saw I had lost a kilo. So you can imagine me today when I stepped on the scales to discover I had lost another! So that's 2kgs in 7 days, and I think that's super. I'm so pleased - it shows I can do it, and have the discipline to (god knows where the discipline came from though, seriously, I was always the sort of person who was going to start her diet 'tomorrow'). All of a sudden I want to do something though. The look of fried food repulses me almost now - like I looked at a bowl of wedges on Wednesday at work in the kitchen and I didn't even want one (last year I would've eaten plenty of those pesky wedges, lol) - never mind that they were cold and I hate cold wedges, but yeah. And it's down to one cool drink a week, if that, which should tear strips of me by itself. I was a terrible coke drinker last year. This year I'm saving my figure and my teeth haha!
The exercise is tough, but I don't mind it too much. I do it whilst watching tv (that's the Cleo Killer Legs exercises and the Cosmo tummy workout, lol!) and then do either yoga, pilates, bike riding or swimming every day. Sometimes 2 of those things. And it's working, which really inspires me. I am going to go back to dancing so fit and looking like a new person. I was so pleased last night when at the HC to suddenly realise my shorts fitted me better then than they did when I tried them on in the shop (and squeezed myself into them). Hurray!

Anyways, I'll stop going on about weight here, nobody wants to hear it I know, but hey this is my blog. Never fear though, I am doing this the right way, the way the doctors say to. So do not worry my friends ;)

The Hopman Cup felt truly weird without Loze there. I just kept expecting to see her around the Dome, wandering, chatting, whatever, as she always has done for as long as we've both been alive. I miss her a lot right now, just her not being at the Hopman Cup for the first time ever and then getting an email from her today and celebrating Christmas and NYE without cards or texts to each other as we always do. London is so far away :( I had a dream the other night that she was coming back in six months. Somehow I don't think she'll be returning that soon.

I got an email from TO tonight asking me if I could help her out with a tinies class on Friday mornings. Oh how I detest ECU right now for scheduling the Authorship and Publication class on Friday mornings at 9am! Grrrr this was the email I've been waiting for ever since she opened up her studio - the chance to teach, to help her out, to work with little kids again, and doing what I love most (dancing of course!). I was just waiting for her to ask me to teach for her, and then she did and I can't! Damn timetables to timetable hell! I so want to help her teach that Friday class! I tried to make it not sound so outright 'no I can't' sort of thing in my reply email, but really, what else could I say? I am so disappointed I cannot teach for her. I offered myself up for any other time and any other class (except the seniors, but then maybe I should offer myself for that class, cos omg do they need some work....shut up stop bitching Larissa!). I hope she can fit me in with at least one class to teach, sometime. Why does this always happen! Like I have the boringest life on the planet, nothing exciting or otherwise ever happens, and yet when something good IS offered to me, it falls on the same day, or at the same time as something else. This happened last year also when I offered to help TO with her concert rehearsals. We were all set to make her concert amazing and then Mrs S and CS make my concert dress rehearsal the same night as TO's concert - so I couldn't help out after all.


Ohhhh my God, it is sweltering in here, I must leave it here. It has been boiling the last 2 days, but it means I have been able to lay out in the sun at last and get some colour to my skin (which I have now achieved thankyou! :D) but it makes for some very uncomfortable nights. Especially when I can't turn my fan onto high because if I did the whole thing would come away from the ceiling! Tomorrow I think I will do so more sun baking, maybe some reading too. Will stay well away from Mum as she is in a terrible mood because Nanna was taken to hospital tonight and that always annoys her. I feel like catching up with one of the girls and having a coffee or something tomorrow, but who knows if that will happen!

Might go and watch some Blue Heelers before bed actually - last night I watched Be Prepared (great great great episode!) and A Question of Loyalties (another goodie - "And don't get any funny ideas, otherwise I'll knock your block off!" love you Pat Doyle!)

Goodnight!

Listening to: Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
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Don't you just love New Years? Everybody gets a second chance

The beginning of a new year, the second chance for everybody as the title suggests. That line is from Forrest Gum - a fave movie of mine - and I think it really sums up New Years very well. It sounds even better with the American accent the actress puts on in the bar on New Years Eve with Forrest and Lt Dan :o)

2006 is going to be an awesome year for me I've decided. I probably say that every year but this year it's gonna happen. It really is. I'm going to buy a car first of all, one of those pivotal moments in life - the first car - and I am just screaming at the top of my lungs for the independence it will give me. Mum and Dad will probably never see me again after I get it, lol! 'Thanks for the loan Mum! See you next week!' haha

Uni - omg second year. Never ever thought I'd ever see that. First year has flown by before my eyes! I need to be over first year uncrtainties now and put my arse in the air and my nose to the page and work if I'm going to get anywhere. Shouldn't be as hard as first year was as I am actually doing some pretty good units this year and hopefully I will like them enough not to dread going to the classes and having to do the assignments that come with them. And a lot of the are SCAM units (the journalism dept) which often don't have exams. That'd be nice :o) Also will only have to go to uni three days a week which will be so amazingly good. Four days was just too much lol!

And I need to think of my future, lol! Reading a million and one articles about Kerry Packer and his life in The Australian today have made me realise not only should I write a best seller to get me my millions but I should also buy a television station, a radio network, a magazine, a newspaper or all of the above. Haha! And I will. Seriosuly. I'm going to be rich and they're going to write about me in The Australian and The Bulletin one day. You just wait.


Anyways, onto new Years. After so little plans and so much mucking around I was going to go out dammit and I was going to dance until dawn. And I did. Well, almost. SW and I went to Kings Park for a little casual bbq with Win and everyone, stayed there til about 8:30pm and then SW dropped me into Northbridge where I proceeded to go into that hotel across from the newsagent one street down from Aberdeen Street to use the toilet and then ten minutes later had to go again and so went into the Deen to use their toilet lol! I can't believe how anoying my bladder was being last night!

Anyways, AW was so late meeting me, I kept getting texts saying '2 minutes away! Seriously! Stay in the line!' but I didn't want to stay in the line cos I could just see myself standing in the line and then getting to the front and she still hadn't arrived. So I didn't stand in the line which turned out to be a massive mistake. About 10pm she messaged me saying she was already in The Shed and I was like 'WTF! You were going to meet me! I'm outside and the line is bloody huge now and I'm not even in it!' so I had to join the line and this resulted in me standing in the line in my favourite shoes which soon came to be my worst enemy as standing in one spot in them for an hour and a half, let alone a whole night in Northbridge is murder on my poor tootsies. So finally, at about 11:30pm I got into The Shed at last and couldn't even find AW cos her phone was dying on and off. But we found each other at another line - the line for the ladies, which we ended up visiting several times all night long - and we had a super time after that. I lost count of how many Smirnoff Ice's I downed - I think it was between 5 and 7 - but 2 of those were at the bbq which was HOURS earlier so I don't sound like as much of an alcoholic as it might seem - and me and AW had the best time dancing. The dancefloor was the most packed I'd ever seen it - which is actually only once, lol - but I guess everywhere is like that on NYE. It was like an ocean seriously! Just so squashed, a true sea of people. But no matter, we danced on anyway! Staggered out at 2am because it was closing and I was afraid AW would want to continue on dancing somewhere else but thank goodness she didn't. My feet couldn't have handled that. My right foot is still all numb and tingly and it's so irritating! As PM said, I really need to get me some party feet! So we headed to the taxi rank and didn't have to wait as long as we did that weekend we went out for my birthday. Finally got a taxi at, hmm I dunno, maybe 3am, and it took us to Como where her car was and she was all set to drive me home and I was so unsure. For a start I didn't want to become roadkill thanks to my best friend driving after drinking all night and secondly cos I knew if Mum found out she would murder me anyways and thirdly I didn't really want to sit with AW in a police caravan parked on the freeway taking RBT's which she would have of course blown way over .05 into. So I said that I would take the taxi back home even though the rate was ridiculous to get from Northbridge to Como to my suburb. I felt a bit bad leaving her to drive home alone, and even though it sounds horrible I'd rather her and not me. She understood though. She messaged me when she was home and said the guy whose house her car was parked at in Como had tried to talk her out of driving home but she had anyways and thankfully she got home safely as did I, even though yet again I had a creepy taxi driver. Why are they always strange? I thought I would make conversation on the way home and asked him if he'd had a busy night and he answered but the thing was anytime he spoke to me he fully turned around in his seat, totally turning his body towards me sitting in the backseat and taking his eyes entirely off the road for longer than I cared to realise. Haha maybe I would've been better driving home with AW! And it wouldn't have cost me $46.80, lol!

Anyways, was a good night all up me thinks. I slept forever today, not getting up til 4pm. I don't seem to get hangovers though which is a relief and a half. But then I never get drunk enough for that I don't think. Or maybe my stomach and liver are just really accepting. After all I don't drink very often. Anyways, so yes I am feeling fine and dandy today despite beginning the new year with every womans favourite monthly event (oh I know, such luck hey! - NOT!)

Happy New Year!

Listening to: Angels - Lisa McCune - Blue Heelers soundtrack
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